Monday, January 31, 2011

This is how perfection works

Why try so hard to gain everyone's shallow approval, when all you need is the love of a handful whom you hold close to your heart.

Remember sweethearts, this may sound silly but do remember to Be Yourself everyday.
Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.

To the world we may not be perfect, but we're perfect for each other ♥





From my formspring :)

it's about time haters should realise that as much as i respect that you are entitled to have your own opinions (but i won't heed any of your advice anyway), sometimes it'll be better if you didn't waste your time clicking back on my link and giving yourself unnecessary frustrations :)
life is too short for you to spend your time on people you hate ^^

you're... kinda.... weird, you knoww..???

then don't come to my formspring or blog, i might spread my weirdness to you ^^
fyi i won't compromise who i am for anyone so you should probably gtfo if you don't like it (:

<3!

Don't you think its kind of gay that your boyfriend wears eyeliner?

NOT AT ALL!!!!! :)
i love him, i love the fact he puts on make up (i love to put it for him too!), i love the fact he's as vain as i am, i love how we like to wear leopard prints, i love how we have very similar tastes, i love how he plays the piano and i'll sing with him, i love how we can talk about alternative religions and not be judged by each other, i love how queer we both are.
it's okay if others don't see eye to eye with us, it just goes to show how we're perfect for each other <3>

Friday, January 28, 2011

New found freedom

to the fucking formspring trolls who can't stop your hating and keep blabbering about religions, i won't bother answering you since i'm not suppose to post anything blasphemous.

ANYWAY HERE'S SMTH TO LIGHTEN UP THE MOOD

samantha says:
recently
i like to point at people's face features and say " Penis"

Rachell Quagmire says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHA

samantha says:
its damn pissing off
HAHAHAHA
try it on martin
:p

samantha says:
point at hes eyes and say " Penis "

Rachell Quagmire says:
hahahahah
then later he point to my eyes and say small penis how
LOL
cuz his eyes big

FML I GOT SMALL PENIS :(

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Dug my way out, blood and fire

Thank you girlfriend for sending me this song! LOVEUUUUUUU MAXMAX ^^



Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing

You're f*ckin' perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me...

As a child I think I grew up with severe inferiority complex even without knowing that the term existed.
I'd always felt like I wasn't good enough.
I started comparing myself with others and driving myself into misery since I was in primary school.
I remembered they used to have this point ranking thing among girls, and we'd rate how pretty each girl was upon 10..

Look at the ugly girl, first row's 3rd from the right.
She'd never scored well on that chart, definitely, and she never forgot.
Unfortunately for her, her closer friends were those who scored 9.9 (some girl considered to be super pretty) all the way to 8.5.


Even when it came to grades, she was always average at best.
In primary 5, English officially became her most dreaded subject.
Till this day she remembers the awkwardness when her English teacher made students raise their hands up to show how much they scored for Grammar or Vocab MCQ practices.
She's always be one of the last in class to raise her hand for the lowest grade (5 or 6/10), along with this other boy.
And again, she never forgot.

After getting out of primary school, she went into an all girls' school, made a whole lot of friends along the way, but was never in the "cool clique".
She was never pretty enough, she was never rebellious enough, she was never daring enough, she was never smart enough, she was never hot enough, she was never fun enough.

She kept a diary in Secondary 2. And in it wrote these sentences that she'll never forget.
"No guys will ever like me cause I'm not the kind of xiaomeimei boys like. I can't be as cute as those girls."
"Why am I so different from them? Why can't I be as pretty as them? We're all suppose to be the same. So why am I like this? Can someone please tell me..."

She tried to gain acceptance and fill the void in her heart in Secondary 4 by going to church devotedly with her close friends.
Pretentious, fake, awkward, forced, it was all a show.
She never belonged there, and soon it showed.
She was considered an outsider/guest during the last few times she went there, and that's when she knew what she had to do.

Leaving all by yourself is never easy. Without the support from all your friends, without anyone to stand by your side when the odds are against you, without anyone to accept you even if you're at fault.

Then time and again she fell into the trap of boys because there was still a void within.
As expected, she got herself bruised by numerous immature relationships.

But each time, she grew stronger.
She learned new things about herself.
She learned what made her happy and essentially, made her who she was.
She learned that when a boy or a friend does not accept you for who you are and forces you to change and it compromises your happiness, he/she's not worth it.
She learned that in life you have to dare to take your chances, and of course know how to bear the consequences, or you'll live to regret.
She learned that even if no one else is doing it doesn't mean you shouldn't do it.
She learned that if you don't want anything to happen to you, nothing ever will.
She learned that her source of happiness was by outdoing what she was or what she had done previously, by improving herself, and not by comparing with others.
And from that, she learned that perfection is still too long a way to go, but she can still be happy.

Today, the girl in the mirror who never forgot, has dug her way out of blood and fire and fought her own battles.
And to me, she will one day be perfect.
So will you

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Favourite peopleeeeee ♥

The day we were suppose to go to town to buy stuff but left the house too late and went to Rebel instead
hahahah we're damn fail like that, but i love us!!! :)



eyebags eyebags please go away :(


CHUUUUUUUUUUU~


teehee bby sokewt!


my gf got super smexy legssssss


sick girl todayyyy


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Sunday, January 23, 2011

Fifteen



DISCLAIMER: I was never a REAL butch or lesbian, I only cut my hair when I was 15 cause my bestfriend had really short hair so we pretend to be "brothers" in our all girls' school and pretended to go on double dates, that's all.

and btw I NEVER SAID I LOOK GOOD WITHOUT MAKE UP!
so this is me without make up, my face hasn't changed in a really long time...........except my hair.
so stfu if you're gonna be a troll and go "omg you look ugly w/o make up blahblah"

(i borrowed my friend's st gabs uniform and wore it around town)


That was me.

What were you doing when you were 15?

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Dry your tears with Love

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Bby and i went near SMU to take pictures!
fucking funny we went like "wrong angle wrong angle!!! arm looks fat thighs look damn big! shift your hand abit blahblah" for HOURS. omfg.
the reason why i don't photoshop my pictures is because i'd rather take 100000 pictures and choose the ones with the nicest angles and then keep that :)
hahaha damn niao




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i like this picture of us :)
everything was taken with my digital camera plus the timer so don't expect too much!! lol




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hellokitty tongue tattoos from 7eleven
quite nice to eat hahah taste like some sweetsweet colourful biscuit thingy i used to eat when i was a kid

bby's tongue so fucking long can put 2 hellokittys and still have space :S


ohmy my tongue so short and stumpy :(



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P.S. bby you made me realise what's better than having just myself in the world; having someone who complements my character, my behaviour, my likes and dislikes soooo much it seems almost logical to say "it's fated" (:
like two puzzle pieces, we're meant to be placed together. ^^
(i know it may be too early to say this, but trust me, we're 4 months in our relationship with no quarrels, i've never thought that was possible before)

i've always believed that in your lifetime you'll meet a whole lot of wrong people, so that when you meet the right ones you'll appreciate them more.
i really do understand that now. there are so many things that you do for me all the little things that make me feel super loved.
i don't need tiffany and co presents, i don't need to eat at expensive restaurants, i don't need whatever branded bags (cause i like cheap and chio things better), i just need us to be happy :)
and up till now, i've got everything i ever needed